I thought I was still madly in love with my ex..truth is, my lonely ass was just in love with the thought of being in love. I was bored..I had moved across the country to make my dreams come true. And the only dream I was living was endless Tinder disappointments. But I did mature. Being alone and broke had taken its toll. I was relentless at work and was dripping of confidence, and it was starting to show. A year ago, I was so confused and diving head first into anything that seemed like a good time. Now, I'm more focused, and cautious than ever. So career wise and relationship wise I was moving forward in life. But I still couldn't shake the feeling that I wanted to be in a relationship. I actually like the phone calls, late night and good morning texts, the cuddles and the making of future plans. But is it always good to be in a committed relationship. I mean we've all had that buttery feeling with someone. Either your current relationship or past. We've all had the special feeling in our tummy that makes us want to jump back to loving who we once loved. But how badly did your past relationships end? And how desperate are you to force a new love? I think most people love those calls and feelings, just like I do. But I also think that people are willing to sacrifice true happiness for a fake one. The world is changing. And starting over with a new guy in this generation or any guy seems so dreadful. I think humanity has to overcome the feeling of needing to be with someone, because truth is we are all loved, by family, friends, and God. And I think sometimes we think I need him/her to love me, thats going to complete me. But it won't. Do really need him/her to love you? Or do you just need to just love yourself better. Its weird when you get in the head space of reminiscing, excited for and afraid of the coming of the exes. Is it so bad to be alone, and still feel completely loved?
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