So, I've been going back and forth about what I should write about and since I'm trying to let you guys in on my journey, I want to let you in on all of it. The good, the bad and the ugliest. Life is not easy being a struggling actor, the work isn't consistent and the pay isn't always great. But your doing what you love and I've always said that, that would be enough for me. But was it? Not being able to live a cushy lifestyle or go to the mall and splurge on myself in the last couple of months had been literally driving me insane. Nonetheless, I keep going. I'm scared. Scared to disappoint. I work hard and sometimes it feels like the pay off doesn't pay off. And that scares the hell out of me, I don't want to continue an unstable unhealthy lifestyle, but I do. And thats the ugliest truth of it all. You wake up anxious, wondering where and when the next opportunity is coming. And your worrying about student loans, phone bills and gas for your car. And don't even think about food.. I mean it, you can't afford to eat. I didn't understand the meaning of "struggling artist" or "living paycheck to paycheck" until I literally got thrown into the adult world of being an actor/writer/director... It was looking like more than just my writing was hitting a road block.
Whats worse than writer's block?
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